This is my Grandma Hatch's caramel recipe and it is the BEST caramel recipe I have ever tried. These make for an awesome, inexpensive teacher gift, neighbor gift, etc. I make these every single year for Christmas and they are a huge hit. Just make sure that you really watch your pot while it is boiling, you have to make sure to keep stirring the entire time or else you can easily burn the caram ...[Read More]
This is the most AMAZING pickled egg recipe ever!! The first time I heard about pickled eggs, I thought they sounded totally disgusting. But, I promise you, they are soooo delicious and a great, quick way to get in some protein and healthy fats. They aren't overly spicy but have just enough kick to create a good flavor. Try a small batch at first, and I promise you will be forever hooked! Ingr ...[Read More]
Did you know that body image is the number one shame trigger for women? Studies show that most women have on average 11-19 negative body image thoughts every single day! The secret to changing this is to be aware of your thoughts and the way you speak to yourself. When you step out of the shower change your internal dialogue when you look in the mirror from, "ugh I look gross" to "I have a strong, ...[Read More]
I was around 220lbs on the photo on the left. The photo on the right is me currently with my two kids. A lot of people always want to know my 'secret' but the truth is I didn't do it with any fancy diets or pills. I didn't cut calories or carbs to an extreme level. I never ran a ridiculous amount of miles. I ate whole, nutritious foods, lifted heavy weights, and did a little bit of high intensity ...[Read More]
Has anyone been doing Black Friday shopping today? I want to hear about all the deals you got! Let me know in the comments and how early you started shopping 🙂 I have never seen MRM do a sale this big so I thought I would share with you guys! They will do a 40% off sale sometimes, but never do I see 50%. This is a great deal. These are products I have personally used for over seven years now. The ...[Read More]
This past year I have spent a lot of time alone in nature. I guess you could say it's been my therapy of sorts as I went through a divorce...connecting with nature, hiking to places no one else visits, and taking in beautiful scenery like what's in this picture and the last video I posted, it all was very healing for me. As I was going through that healing process, I kept a lot of things off socia ...[Read More]
As promised, I am going to slowly start sharing with you guys some insight into where I've been lately. A page from my journal the other night when I was feeling small, and sad, and stuck in my own grief...
And then it hits me. I might be in the gym and see someone stare at me for a second longer than normal and wonder if they recognize me from my public profile. I feel like I want to shrink and hide under my hat and in the same moment I know how silly that is. I feel embarrassed that I'm not as lean or as strong as I've been in the past but wonder how I can feel that way right now when I felt quite pretty and happy the day before? It's confusing.
And then it hits me. I'll be at the grocery store and see someone my ex has dated since our divorce or an old mutual friend who chose to stay friends with my ex instead of both of us. I feel insecure, small, and without much worth.
And then it hits me. I'll be dating a man wondering if he's ever been with a woman who has had kids, if he knows about the stretched skin on my stomach from carrying two ten pound babies, or that sometimes I pee my pants when I laugh too hard. Is this something most men know about? It's embarrassing for me to think about but I can't be the only woman who wonders these things, right?
And then it hits me. I'll see a video or a photo of my kids while they are with their dad for the week and feel an overwhelming wave of guilt, shame, sadness, and loss. I should have worked harder to keep our family in tact. I chose this, and maybe I chose wrong. I have moments of doubt. I am missing important days and weeks in my kids' life. When I am not with them, I feel like a bad mom. I feel guilty for enjoying my time away.
I am in a transition phase right now getting used to being a single woman. I don't have all the answers, in fact, when it comes to a lot of these types of emotions I don't have many answers or solutions at all. All I know is that I can't be the only one feeling this way. And I know that when I feel small, and weak....that talking and sharing these feelings makes me feel stronger and less afraid.
Guilt and shame can't survive when we open up, share, and own our stories.
With grief and pain comes joy and peace.
I believe this wholeheartedly. I have to. That belief is what helps get me through the hard times.
Remember this: it is ok to give yourself permission to not be ok all the time and accept that it's very normal to have confusing feelings. Working through this stuff takes time. Be patient with yourself. You give everyone else grace and love, make sure you show that to yourself too. 💗
With so much love,
Hunting is a tradition my family grew up with, and is a big part of my active outdoor lifestyle. Yesterday I went hunting and shot a cow elk (female elk) and the meat from this animal will feed our family all year. This isn't a trophy elk (it would have had huge antlers if it was), this is an animal that I legally and respectfully harvested in the mountains of Idaho. I like to share photos like th ...[Read More]
I am doing another amazing giveaway this week! MRM is giving away a custom MRM Beach Cruiser! Instead of sharing a workout this Wednesday, I am instead sharing a giveaway that you can do a workout with if you win! Entering is super easy, all you need to do is go to: http://mrm-usa.com/earthday. You get an entry by putting in your email address and then additional entries if you follow MR ...[Read More]
I still have days where I feel insecure in the gym. A lot of days actually. I am not immune to it. Days where none of my clothes fit. Days where I feel scrawny and not strong. Days where I look in the mirror and look at my legs and don't feel fit or in shape. Days where my emotions got the better of me and I wanted to cry halfway through my workout. I've learned a few things about myself. 1) It is ...[Read More]